I'm Done

On the eve of what was possibly the biggest hitpiece anyone has ever been sad enough to write about me that currently exists, I've realised that all of this just isn't quite worth it. The last month has been nothing but the same stuff, day in, day out. I'd like to take some time to talk about it.

Cloud Sixteen used to be the same hive of activity that PlayerMeta is now, it had its flaws but for the most part it was the primary hub for serious roleplay, and I genuinely think that the days where it was still active were the best days the scene had. Throughout the last couple of years, since the inevitable stagnation of the scene began, the pool of players that still like to do serious roleplay has seriously dwindled into a shallow puddle, and while everyone else has moved onto greener pastures, there are still some very desperate and thirsty men willing to claw eachother's eyes out to suck up some of the last droplets, regardless of how stale it tastes.

I have watched with bated breath as Garry's Mod roleplay has became less and less popular since 2017, up until the current day, where it's almost laughable just how irrelevant it's all become. What's even more laughable, is the attitudes of those people who are still scrambling for the last pieces of it. I came back to become the manager of C16 with the hopes that I could have one last dip into that proverbial pool before it dried up for good, and until S%Box came along and filled it back up with water again. How foolishly optimistic of me to honestly believe that the people who were left in the scene had changed. I honestly thought the same type of community vs community bullshit I've tried my hardest to get away from had died. I'll admit, I vehemently jumped into every discussion that mentioned C16 and I tried to defend both the community and myself, but my words all fell on deaf ears belonging to self-absorbed sycophants like Zig and his army of bootlickers, who have all but made up their minds about me and hold the absolutely immutable opinion that no matter how many times I tried to reason, how many times I was pushed to the limit of my patience by playerMeta shills, no matter how many times I have stated my intentions and goals as manager of this "dead" forum, that I am a failure and C16 is done for.

I have always been of the state of mind that if you're in this scene, you have to have tough skin. Once you have a reputation for yourself in the Garry's Mod scene, especially one so niche as ours, it's very easy for that reputation to spread and for your name to be permanently dragged through the dirt. But I've also been of the state of mind that, on the same hand, nothing that gets said to you is really of any consequence - because as much as Zig wants to deny it, things said on the internet aren't the end of the world, and I still think that, but this thread that Zig made (link is here https://player meta.net/ threads/why-manic-and-mentally-unstable-men-have-been-dethroned.383/#post-3808) really has just shone a light on how pointless being a part of this scene really is. You can try to make light of the situation and think that I'm just calling myself a "chad" all you want, but outside of the circles of a niche scene on an outdated game, Zig and pM mean absolutely nothing. I won't lose any sleep over this whole situation, nor will I think to care in a week's time while I continue my degree and visit my family, because when it all boils down, these aren't the words of someone who is any better of a person than I am, this is just a furious little manchild on an irrelevant roleplaying forum stringing together big words for his peabrained shills to clap their shit covered hands at.

And for anybody who reads this and thinks anything along the lines of "Wow Sixx, you must be real mad : ^ )", I guess I kind of am. I'm more just annoyed that I thought better of the scene, but throughout my efforts to try and smooth things over and to try and make it so that the two communities remained independent of one another, it was revealed to me that I was once again too naive, had too much faith.

And as much as it might seem like I'm truly seething as I sit here and bash my keyboard and type out this huge thread, just think about how mad Zig must have felt to go to the lengths of saving pictures of me from my personal social media and making photoshops of me to go along with his huge tirade about how much of a retard I am, all because I called some of his users retards.

https://CloudSixteen.com/proxy.php?image=https%3A%2F%2Fi.imgur.com%2FjwywSvq.jpg&hash=331f1fbfe53eb1e815c692548e2830a9

I would like to talk about this too, because I don't really get what the picture is even trying to say. There's a lot of good stuff on the right, stuff which I still stand by, I did think playerMeta's projects were going to turn out great (and still do), and I to think there's a lot of good people on there, but there are also a lot of undesirables and a lot of retarded trolls who perpetuated the same type of drama that both myself and Zig expressed we wished to avoid. But when I point this out, suddenly I'm two faced and I'm a liar. I've had altercations with Zig about the belligerent monkeys from playerMeta who came to C16 just to throw their shit around and slander me before, to which he claimed he had no control over his players, and that if I just ignored it, it would go away. Even though I ignored it, it still kept happening, through no fault of my own, and despite this, you did nothing to try and combat it - I was the only person publicly trying to stave off any community drama. The most I ever saw from you was a shrug and a wave as you watched your users come onto my forums, insult everyone, deliberately antagonize me for no better purpose than to get some laughs in your little circlejerk community, all while sitting on your moral high horse of "I don't control my users". What a fucking cop out.

Sure big guy, nobody cares. Okay.

I'm 100% convinced Zig has a god-complex. You can almost feel the same self satisfaction he got from writing such a huge post about me as his little zealot minions did reading it, and the idea of this forum growing back to even a fraction of its original size while playerMeta was doing so well probably put a chip on his shoulder, one which he couldn't brush off without both getting the likes of Pistol P to post their S86 thread here knowing it would only serve to test my patience after the amount of shit I've been given from both him and his legion of crimemovies fanboys, and without never openly condoning but never vindicating that same shit when he saw it. "Yeah, fuck Sixx, what a retard sperg..." you can hear them whisper as they read it aloud in the comfort of their bedrooms at their parent's house.

You can have your community, and you can have all of the players in this dying scene. I'm through with caring about it, and I'm through with dealing with the intellectual deep-web dwelling fucktards on playerMeta. As long as C16 exists, and as long as I'm the one running it, I won't be free of their vindicative attitudes or their vehement attacking of our forums for no other reason than because Zig and his buddies don't like me and they're a bit bitter that they got banned from here ages ago for being trolls, which is why I think it'd be best if I just stepped down and left the scene for good. It was a good few years, I had some laughs, some bad times, but this whole thing has just reminded me why I left in the first place. Enjoy your irrelevancy, you cancerous piece of trash.

 

First. Goodbye. Good riddance, the drama this role change brought was stupid. Lets learn from this mistake. No longer will I be banned because you don't like me.